Haunted

Six months have passed
Since you went away
I have thought about you
Each and every day

I still don’t understand
I know I never will
Why your own life
Was too much to fill

Six months gone
Such pain I still feel
I can hardly believe
Your absence is real

Now your ashes
Are an arm’s length away
I wish it was you
Alive and doing okay

But wishes like this
Will never see light
And so my soul
Is enshrouded like night

Only a few stars
Twinkle down on me
The road ahead
I can barely see

Some days are better
Most still feel worse
I try to ignore it
Though my heart has burst

You haunt me today
And forever more
I love you, my son
To my soul’s very core.

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Six months ago yesterday, my son Daniel killed himself. I managed to get through half the day before it occurred to me, but after that everything seemed depressing.

Sorry I didn’t do a poem about stars or the NASA thing I mentioned yesterday. I started to, but the above poem was nagging to get out instead. The NASA thing was interesting, by the way, although I only listened for a short time. They found and confirmed two planets orbiting a distant star. There was something unique about this, but I did not understand what. There are other multiple planet stars out there which have been confirmed, but this had some aspect different from them. Anyway, it was cool to listen to.

That’s all for this week. See you Monday.